i have a best friend. he gets embarrassed when i am drunk and swear. i am hanging out with boys from my first year of grad school. the last time we all hung out was the summer after our first year when we were studying for prelims and were afraid that we would fail and flunk out of grad school and would get wasted on bacardi and coke and pretend to do kungfu but i would get bruised before family trips bc i bruise easily. there is a first year here. he is studying for algebra and topology. he is sober. and younger than my younger brother.